Only I understand me!!!!

Where oh where to begin.....so, lets see...i wrote last monday....its been quite an interesting week and a half...drunken drama seems to have been the theme....in that much time i managed to piss off my best guy friend( it was a total drunken stooper moment, not that thats an excuse, ive apologized profusely, he's still not talking to me!!), in that same night i: totally broke down crying( dude, im so NOT a crier, i feel exposed, it sucks!!!) freaked out about my friends not letting me drive home(i was wasted, but, didnt want to leave my car...i guess, in my drunkeness, i felt kinda like it was all i have, which, i guess, is kinda true, since ive essentially been living out of my car for the past two months, which is probably why only i understand me!) oh, also in that same night had to call my mother at 2am, drunk as hell, and bawling, asking her to come pick me up(HI, im 26 years old, this should NOT be happening!!!),lets see, what else....oh, so, wednesday, got my hair did, i decided to do something drastic, i went blonde(SORTA)!!! Mom and i had a girls day on thursday before i headed out to vegas!!! I was so excited for this trip....it was my chance to spend time with jason, and season, and see some kick ass bands...well, i guess 1 out of 3 aint bad!!! When i got there thursday jason and i went to a hookah cafe(jaw cant get a hookah started to save his life!!)...it was really fun....later ahren and a couple of his friends joined us....it was a pretty chill night....so, friday jason and i had tickets to see dave matthews and tim reynolds(KICKED ASS!!!!) i was 4 double vodka/tonics when seasons plane got in and we were supposed to go pick her up...i will now quickly summarize the remainder of the trip, mostly because i could devote at least a couple pages, and i just dont think thats a good idea(for several reasons!!)so, around the same time season got in, coop also got there....confusion on whos picking up who, hung out in caesars, had my "best friend" attack my character....went to vegoose(A_W_E_S_O_M_E, atmosphere, my new fave!!!), watched said friend give false hope to coop.....Vegoose part two(even more awesome!!, saw MOE for the first time, also, jack, oh, jack, what more can i say!!!)went shopping(cuz said b.f. doesnt gamble), total time spent on strip-approx. 5 hours. total time spent in casinos, clubs, other fun stuff you SHOULD be doing while on the strip-way less than should be ALLOWED, or LEGAL even, yeah, i shouldve been penalized for wasting the party potential that is vegas...so, thats the vegas trip in a nutshell---WOOHOO!!! huh...im demanding a rematch, me and vegas, ONE ON ONE, no other "drama" i mean, people!!!!!!!! oh, ive also been rejected from a job in tahoe, and then been told im being considered for the same job, HUH??? yeah, also, bought my ticket to fly "home" can/should i still call it that? i guess we'll see come november 15th.....so, yeah, im officially over fresno, and all the drama that surrounds it, i guess if that means having to dissolve "friendships" so be it...besides, im 26, i shouldnt have to be convincing my "friends" to be my friends, im too busy getting drunk and calling my mom for rides.....